I feel like I'm barely keeping it together this week. I have personally acknowledged just how rotten I've been feeling about current events in my life, but I am also trying my best to not let my feelings create a wake of negativity from my interactions with others. It's okay for me to be depressed about depressing things. In fact, I would argue that being happy about depressing things would be the mark of a sociopath. Still, acknowledging that depression is one thing, wallowing in it is another.
Yet I've been struggling to get out of bed lately and spending large amounts of my rather limited time staring off into space as though I could construct a better future through sheer force of will. The increasing requirements of the two courses that I am taking feel like hoops more than learning opportunities (but, then, I felt that about many courses I've taken for my other degrees as well). Add to that the sadness I've felt for every time a student has asked me if I am going to coach hurdles this year and ... well, there I go wallowing.
I had the kids at Faith Formation singing Dona Nobis Pachem in preparation for the Sunday after Easter. The phrase is Latin for "grant us peace." I think of River in the movie Serenity praying, "Please God, make me [like] a stone" when she's battling all of the mental images that tear at her sanity. I do not wish to feel nothing, but rather to feel wrapped in the peaceful assurance that this is all following God's plan. Dona Nobis Pachem.
Yet I've been struggling to get out of bed lately and spending large amounts of my rather limited time staring off into space as though I could construct a better future through sheer force of will. The increasing requirements of the two courses that I am taking feel like hoops more than learning opportunities (but, then, I felt that about many courses I've taken for my other degrees as well). Add to that the sadness I've felt for every time a student has asked me if I am going to coach hurdles this year and ... well, there I go wallowing.
I had the kids at Faith Formation singing Dona Nobis Pachem in preparation for the Sunday after Easter. The phrase is Latin for "grant us peace." I think of River in the movie Serenity praying, "Please God, make me [like] a stone" when she's battling all of the mental images that tear at her sanity. I do not wish to feel nothing, but rather to feel wrapped in the peaceful assurance that this is all following God's plan. Dona Nobis Pachem.
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