I want a large yard, but I hardly take care of the one I have. I want a writer's space, but I rarely spend my free time writing. I want to live in view of mountains, but I don't even take advantage of the nature that is around me. I want to live in a place that has more separation between houses, but I don't want to be too far from modern conveniences. I want to be in better shape, but I want to continue most of my current lifestyle (of which I have already expressed dissatisfaction). I want to get away from my home town, but when gone I yearn for home.
Is this just part of human nature, to want what we don't have? A part of me wants to move and start again as a way of "rebooting" my life, to give a solid starting point to live my life more the way I would like to live it. Why, then, can I not just "reboot" from where I am now? Why not make the home I am in now the home where I want to be? Why not do the same with my job, my town, my body, and my life?
What needs to change is me.