All in all, my life is pretty good. I mean, it's better than most people's in the world when all things are considered and I am generally happy. Yet something always seems to step in the way of my feeling secure for either myself or my family. Just as our finances get into order, an unexpected expense or a drop in revenue occur. The accident that totaled our car and changed our lives by basically sending us out of Alaska occurred just minutes after Janelle and I had figured out our financial situation and come up with a plan for the next couple of years. The year after I made a conscious decision to not look outside of Colon for other teaching jobs, we were hit by a terrible set of negotiations that hit us with an extra monthly fee that nearly bankrupted us. We just got our finances in order again only to find that I will be taking some level of pay cut (beyond already losing my step again this year).
Things will work out. God has taken care of us and we have lived a lifestyle more comfortable than most. Perhaps I, likely most fellow humans, will never achieve that feeling of security. Maybe that's just part of our nature. It doesn't stop me from praying for something better.