I have to pull the plug on this video game. Like an addict, I've tried to wean myself from the game, only to go on a binge and then fully addicting myself again. I have spent more hours than I would like to admit playing it, and many of them have not been happy.
I hit my breaking point yesterday for a variety of reasons. 1) I become a monster when losing, and I have been on a massive losing streak. I snap at my family and hold the anger built from the game long after I turn it off. I really don't like that side of me.
2) The game has not been as rewarding to play. They give players a rating based on their wins and losses. However, they changed the formula this season so that, somehow, I have more wins than losses, but my score is a hundred and seventy points below where I started the season. As I am a complete geek, I keep tabs on all of my stats for each game, and I have been receiving medals (usually gold) in every one. I even take on the positions (as it is a team game) that the other players aren't willing to play. Yet, the game seemed to be punishing me for that choice.
3) I have to hog the Internet to play. Our bandwidth is good for our area, but limited for this sort of play. Even automated updates for other computers can slow down my game, raising my anger and frustration, which often leads to yelling.
4) It has been eating my time. I think that I can just get on and play one quick game only to find that hours have passed by the time I log off. This has cut into my sleep time and has also probably had me sitting in this chair too often for no productive purpose.
I like the game ... too much. It is hard, very hard to let it go. But I think I must.
I hit my breaking point yesterday for a variety of reasons. 1) I become a monster when losing, and I have been on a massive losing streak. I snap at my family and hold the anger built from the game long after I turn it off. I really don't like that side of me.
2) The game has not been as rewarding to play. They give players a rating based on their wins and losses. However, they changed the formula this season so that, somehow, I have more wins than losses, but my score is a hundred and seventy points below where I started the season. As I am a complete geek, I keep tabs on all of my stats for each game, and I have been receiving medals (usually gold) in every one. I even take on the positions (as it is a team game) that the other players aren't willing to play. Yet, the game seemed to be punishing me for that choice.
3) I have to hog the Internet to play. Our bandwidth is good for our area, but limited for this sort of play. Even automated updates for other computers can slow down my game, raising my anger and frustration, which often leads to yelling.
4) It has been eating my time. I think that I can just get on and play one quick game only to find that hours have passed by the time I log off. This has cut into my sleep time and has also probably had me sitting in this chair too often for no productive purpose.
I like the game ... too much. It is hard, very hard to let it go. But I think I must.
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