This is even more difficult for me when contemplating the loss of a child. I do not know if my children fully understand how dear they are to me. I cannot fully understand what it is like for those who have lost a child, even one that has reached adulthood. I feel selfish for not wanting to ever experience that loss. Why should I be special in that regard?
In today's readings Abraham was ready to sacrifice his son. In the Gospel, God tells the three apostles that Jesus is His beloved son knowing full well that Jesus will be sacrificed. I would not be willing to make those same sacrifices. I simply do not think I would be strong enough to face that loss.