The one area where I truly feel undeserving is with my wife, Janelle. In so many ways, I am a self-absorbed person, tending to focus on my own wants and desires without the full consideration for others. Too often, have I taken my wonderful wife for granted. Although I have tried to make amends in that area, she has become only more beautiful and caring, unintentionally widening the gap that is my unworthiness. I do not say this as hyperbole or from a biased and subjective viewpoint: Janelle is objectively getting more and more beautiful as well as more and more loving.
I fear that my good fortune in my marriage and life might be causing the entire world to go out of balance to compensate. As I've said, I don't believe that I've done anything in particular to deserve such a life with such a wife. I just hope she doesn't figure out how much better she could do.