All of this leads to an increase in my blood sugar readings and my weight. So far, I've still managed to stay in the borderline realm of just barely unhealthy, but I need to start reeling myself back in. I find it especially easy to continue a downward slide after I make a mistake. It's as though the one screw up suddenly gives me permission to go into full regression. It quickly becomes a more and more difficult pit to climb back out of.
The first step is admitting that there's a problem. As long as I don't use it as an excuse (i.e. I'm just unhealthy; I might as well enjoy what life I have left), I can make this my new starting point. I'm bound to slip; however, that does not give me the excuse to do so on purpose.
... one step at a time ...